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I'm a fucking idiot

on a different (and slightly better) note, I got a copy of "Attitude is Everything" (the second edition) by Jeff Keller. Hopefully I can learn something from it...

...my laptop's display is unrepairable.
Everything else, however, is just fine.

That is all. Carry on.

laptop's been sent for repairs, will get it back soon enough
i'm having the trials for my finals, just did the first paper today (which was English)
aaaand i'm having a lot of trouble finding a capellas here on NG (it ain't updated very often)

anyway, how's your day?

i had started collabs but never finished them
joined groups, but contribute nothing to them

maybe i'll revive all those collabs in 2014

i made, like, 4-6 different attempts at it (making a beat, and not rapping i mean) and it's real tough.
if anyone ever gives you shit for making hip-hop, smack 'em in the esophagus

also, long time no see

I might regret this.

No, I'm not gonna change my username. But having Yoshiii343 as a producer name looks off.
So if follow me on Soundcloud and notice my display name changing a few times, that's why.

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You know, several days since my laptop screen broke (for some reason), I've been reflecting a bit on some stuff in my life.

As most of you would already know, I'm in my senior year in high school, and I have a pretty important ("pretty important" is an understatement) exam in about 5-6 months. And the trial for that exam begins in either less than 2 months or 4 months. I'm not sure. Now, I was never really a high achieving student during those 5 years I spent in high school (middle school included, cause I don't know how the education system works outside of Meh-laysia). But right now, I feel like an idiot. I feel like I can reach more, but given the time remaining and the amount of stuff I have to cover, I'm not very confident.

Then there's university/college, and I'm not sure whether to follow my passion (learning audio engineering or something related to that), or learn/do something that has a better working opportunities (either computer science, or something programming related). Probably a bit early for me to think, tho.

On the music production end, whenever I listen to music from underrated artists (from NG and otherwise), I feel as if their material is much much better than mine. I would always think, "these people have rather limited resources and do this on their spare time...but why are they so good?". (But then I'd stopped giving a fuck about sounding as good as these people, and be either better than them, or do stuff the way I enjoy it.)

Then I start to question why I got into music in the first place. Was it because my brother is doing it too? Is it for the fame and fortune? Am I genuinely interested in conveying my emotions and thoughts via music?

But then I stopped caring and carry on.

...where I had 50+ fans. Is it a premonition? (probably not)

also: you folks can have this